Death

Seriously?  I haven't written on my Blog in over 7 months?!! Life has been so busy and I really miss writing on here.  We had some sad family things happen last month, and I think writing about it will help me clear my mind.  About 3 weeks ago, my mother-in-law was sick and in the hospital.  They couldn't find anything wrong with her, so they sent her home.  The next morning, her daughter found her unconscious and not breathing well.  The paramedics took her to the hospital and my husband arrived there just as they were trying to revive her.  They got her heart going again and she was basically put into a coma with some medicine while her body tried to recover.  It was a long few days with her in the hospital.  Once the swelling went down in her brain, they could do some tests on her to see how long she may have been without oxygen.  Turned out she was probably without oxygen for at least 10-15 minutes.  The damage to her brain was so severe.  It was determined that she was brain dead.  She was on life support and we had to decide to take her off the machines.  Who wants to make that decision?  How was I supposed to tell my children that their grandma was so sick, that she was going to die?  It was the hardest week of my life that week, and it wasn't even my own mother.  To watch my husband deal with all of that stress, it was horrible!  Once we were at peace with the decision that we made, we all gathered at the hospital to be with her.  Her 3 children and their significant others got to be in the room with her as she passed, while other family members waited outside.  I am so grateful that my dad was able to stay home and watch my kids that day so I could be there with my husband while he said goodbye to his mom.  I'm also grateful to know that we will be able to see her again.  Of course the afterlife is a big unknown, but I can feel that everything will be ok.